lost

                        where     have    you    gone?
                      lost in the pages
                      of my memory
                      I can't find you.
                      you were  kind   loving
                       gentle   warm   strong
                       I remember ....
                        I was proud
                       to call you friend .......
                                                   my friend.
                        now ....
                      it's anger       aggression
                                winning
                       fighting          controlling.
                        I struggle
                         to find you.
                       where have you gone?
                       where are you going?
                       do you like who you are?
                        who you are becoming?
                       who is this person
                        who wishes to dominate others?
                       I thought I knew you.
                          I didn't,
                          I don't.