dirty diaper

                                disposable throw away me
                                    i thought i was immune
                                       to the pattern,
                      i really believed i was
                         indisposable to you,
                      i never thought that
                       you would throw me away ....
                             too.
                      i watched you
                       observed you
                        toss others aside,
                        dispose of them   quickly,
                           coldly,
                         cut them off .........
                      and i tried to understand
                           to take your side
                       not
                        to judge you,
                      because       i loved you
                       i thought i knew your true heart.
                      and now ....
                             it's my turn.
                     i never even considered that one day
                      it would be my turn ....
                      that my  TIME  would come
                          like all the others.
                     i can't believe my naiveté
                           my stupidity
                         my blindness.
                     for some senseless reason
                       i thought i was special.
                        somehow .....above it.
                                 and now
                                      here i am,
                    disposed of
                         thrown away...
                            like a fucking dirty diaper.