SEEING you not
seeing me
as I really am inside
or care to be seen
on the outside
is paralyzing and tormenting.
And every new word you uttered
dissolved a hope
i had nourished
of birthing a bond between us.
And every new word you uttered
nailed the coffin shut
a little tighter
into the flesh of my heart.
Finally, spending time with you
in a space I carefully claimed
for us,
you talked about your life
with her ...
SEEING you not
seeing me
as I really am inside
or care to be seen
on the outside
is a blinding storm
of crashing and homeless
intimate desires.
