tangled

                                         tangled in this web
                                            i see your face
                                          looking at me,
                                            searching my eyes,
                                          wondering
                                         questioning
                                             what am i going to do...
                                             where am i going
                                             where do you fit in...?
                                    but   the silence deafens
                                          and my soul cries loudly  that
                                          i  just don't know.
                                          and every day
                                            the spider weaves another layer
                                            and i step with you
                                          a little deeper
                                          into the maze.
                                          and every day
                                            the web grows more thick
                                            and clingy   but
                                          it matters not
                                    for i am already lost,
                                    i cannot see home
                                                  anymore.
                                          i have traded
                                            my safe place
                                          for you...
                                  a fantasy     a dream      a desire.
                                          i have risked
                                           the most happiness
                                            i have known
                                          for an experience
                                          of you.
                                          i have no answers...
                                          only
                                                  questions.
                                             why am i doing this?
                                             why do i want you?
                                             why am i willing
                                          to give up everything
                                            for
                                          an unknown future?
                                          why
                                          these feelings
                                                  now?
                                          i live
                                          day to day
                                               pretending i am free
                                            but
                                          i am caught
                                          in the web
                                          by my own reflection...
                                             my own addictions
                                                  games
                                                  craziness.
                                         will i get out
                                            or let the spider