friends

                           do you think
                              we could be friends???
              i haven't had a friend
               for such a long time...
              my friend's been gone
               for such a long time...
               i want someone
                to care about,
                 talk,  listen,
                laugh,  cry...
   
                           woman
                someone i can be myself with,
                        someone who will understand
                        the crazy conflicts
                          inside of me.
                       a  deep  friend
                           mutually vulnerable.
                      i want someone
                       to take a risk
                        in knowing me,
                      accepting me   
                              for        
                              who      
                               i         
                              am      
                                           but i'm afraid...

                would you be afraid of me???
           

               i'm afraid of you...
                  of...
                 getting too close,
                 making you sad,
                 not giving enough,
                 messing my mind,
                losing
                 everything.
               i'm afraid
                 i'll never have a friend,
                      again.
                                     it is ... a gift.